Moment of contentment is normally followed by extensive period of doubts and insecurity. I have been fairly happy lately. New environment does tend to take your mind off things. That is, until now. Almost a month passes by, I'm once again reminded of the haunting reality. I want a small break but don't dare to take one. I want to grab on to something that doesn't have an expiration date, but can't seem to find any. For now, I can only hold on to what I have at the moment, as unsatisfying as it can be at times.