周末流水账

很不一样的周末。平日的狐朋狗友都离岛了。K回了connecticut，C飞去了chicago见家人顺便当我们的商业间谍，连比较宅的H先生都跑去cape cod。 趁着空闲，周五见了几个平日里少见的朋友，一个吃饭，一个喝茶，倒也惬意。

周六晚上跟M姐姐和V小姐抱着法式面包提着沙拉杀去了roosevelt island. 明眼人都看得出我是第一次去，从下车的第一分钟就看起来像个乡下人，探头探脑的，到处都看着稀奇。 楼很新，公寓无比大还有羡慕死我的walk-in closet，最喜欢可以看到曼哈顿的大阳台。一个晚上就这样坐在阳台上吃烤肉喝sangria。估计全纽约外加新泽西的德国同胞们都来报到过了。所以谈话也一直在德语和英文之间转换。忍不住，时不时需要开个小玩笑把语言拉回英文。很可爱的一群人，好迁就我和V 小姐。

可能最近时差调的好，刚过12点我就开始打瞌睡。 无奈，向来举止优雅从不失态的G小姐竟然喝醉了，无比可爱的缠着我和M姐姐不让走。 折腾到2点半，终于送下她回到家。

今天比较懒，但还是很孝顺的陪母亲大人去朵颐吃饭去韩国城吃甜点。 知道她很闷，没什么水平相当的朋友，到头来还得找我这个见面就吵的女儿。 想多陪陪她可是内心纠结啊。这个吃法， 估计三天长了5斤肉。 有点自尊心就减肥吧我！

当地主，还是小打工的？

有点不知道说什么了。最近又开始烦，没选择的时候穷担心，有选择的时候踌躇不定。

先说人，再说事。 上周五在中央公园和G女士淋了个落汤鸡，还要赶回家梳洗再出发，全因之前介绍C和K认识，结果两个美女看对了眼，硬要我这中间人安排大家出来喝酒。结果酒过三巡两个人竟然同时向我发难。唉，好歹我在朋友圈里好脾气怕尴尬也是出名的，唯一的小毛病也就偶尔不接电话，没事放下鸽子。 可是对朋友的包容，我够自信。 当时打打哈哈也就混过去了，可回到家越想越气。当然，因为怕尴尬所以第二天还是假装没事的继续聊天，可心里想好了，很多事，以后不会对这两个家伙说了，没品。

周二的时候跟M小姐去David Burke Townhouse吃饭。完全爱上了这家店。东西好吃，摆盘漂亮，几个服务生更是殷勤的很，更重要的，我们是因餐馆周去的，他们还是一样的在点餐后上了amuse-bouche。有点受宠若惊。 酒足饭饱之后，两人喝茶闲扯的空档，M小姐说远看一个人很眼熟。定睛一看，原来是“黄金男孩”坐在吧台。 简单说这个名字的来历，叫他男孩其实他都快前秃了。所谓“黄金” 也毫无推崇之意，完全跟他拍马屁的功夫成正比。 当然，“黄金老男孩”凭他这点功夫也混到公司副总了，唉，这世道。

了解David Burke Townhouse的人应该都知道，坐在主餐厅，想不贴身经过吧台出门是办不到的。所以我们俩人啜着白茶，耗着时间想对策，最终还是被他看到了。 有点小尴尬的相认之后，我们出门前再次出于礼貌去打个招呼。很没缘由的，“黄金男孩”邀我们坐下喝一杯，很神奇的，M小姐竟然没拒绝。要知道，虽然他们依然是同事关系，M小姐平日里说起他都是翻白眼的，没事还要讥讽一下他努力藏着的南方口音之类有的没的。就这样，从香槟喝到香槟调酒(顺便说，他们家的bellini 很失望），看得出“黄金男孩”今晚心情不错，M一直追问他们几个白天在会议室里讨论什么重大机密，他也都是笑而不答。终于，趁M小姐去洗手间的时候，忍不住对我说，他今天辞职了。我吃了一惊，这家伙可是刚升副总没多久，加上公司上月刚做成了两个大案子，他又是拿佣金拿到手软，辞职？？？

正要多做祝贺之时，M小姐回来，大家有一搭没一搭的讨论着V的辞职。这时手机进条短信，C小姐正在下城跟V喝酒，就一句话， “走了仨？！？！？！” 嗨，每个人还一副国家机密的样子，我这早就离职的人，在几个小时之内就全知道了。 这个世界哪里还有秘密啊。 到这里，理一下头绪，一天之内，走了一个副总加两个分析员。对这等规模的公司，相当于8级地震。

对我这外人来说，这本都没什么影响。“黄金男孩”见我继续面不改色的喝着香槟，凑上前说，Coco 你知道你到现在都还是老板心中的最爱，我们都还是用你做过的东西来训练新人。假如老板知道你已经回到纽约的话，他会打爆你的电话邀你回来的。薪水嘛，更是三级跳哦。

说来好笑，这件事其实我早有所闻，M 姐姐说过，C 小姐提过，连跟D 吃饭的时候，他都不经意的谈到。当然，黄金男孩因为D的关系，对我的动向，也一直心里有数。 似乎全公司除了两个老板和那些没见过的实习生，我成了大家心照不宣的秘密。

一直没动心的，可现在？ 说实话我知道可以很轻松的要到6位数薪金外加佣金，当时要走的时候他们已经开到接近这个数了，今时今日，更是不用说。 可是，值吗？ 当我们的价值只能用薪金来衡量时，我真的可以确定我一整年的时间，只值这个数吗？

外加一句，那天晚上“黄金男孩”很有风度的揽掉了整张账单， 我偷瞄一下，我们三个喝掉了一个burberry的手袋。 有种感觉，人要离开了，变的比较坦诚比较绅士了。

周末在woodburry狂撒钱。Coach门前的队伍是永远不散的。门内的光景更是可怕。Moi主动要求去帮忙排队，然后看着两个中年妇人两眼冒光健步如飞，各自手里5，6个 钱包，腕包，还有两三个提包，挎包。最后，还在L 大人的一再坚持下，收下一个旧版的satchel。很无奈，不爱这个牌子已经很久了，却在半年的时间内连续收了4个包包。

人就是这样，对雪中送炭的人会念念不忘，可是那些锦上添花的人，却很少在心中留下波澜。 也不过就在几年前，Moi疯狂的迷恋coach， 却不好意思在不赚钱的年纪自己买一个来。 记得我央求L 大人送一个腕包作圣诞节的礼物，一个不到100美金的小东西，却被她以可笑的理由回绝了。再往后，Moi 开始做暑期工，兼职，慢慢有了点小收入，却也没有什么购买的冲动了。

然后很莫名的，去年圣诞，收到了一个coach的棕色腕包。打开的那一刻，没有小惊喜，只记得一直在想，“这个深棕色，真的很老气”。

人，会不会在合适的时候做合适的事情，真的好要命。

就像现在，每天就这么凑合着过着，但每天心里都会有一份小感动。那个肯在凌晨接电话听我哭的人； 那个虽然自己正经历分手，却不忘每天打来关心我的人；那个每天想尽办法转移我注意力的人，那个有事没有就跑到我家附近然后假装顺路的人，我想，都可以划到雪中送炭的那一类吧。

Can't Sleep....

At 12:10 am, 1 Advil pm soft gel

At 1:25 am, 2 detox food patch that also act like sleep aid

At 2:29 am, awake and blogging

In 51/2 hours, my alarm will sound and coffee maker will start......

By Paolo Roversi

Had dinner with H and his friend today. MJ was stressed out about his investment and asked for my opinion on how to deal with the ups, the downs, and the uncertainties, as if I'd know more than him. I told him I feel sick to my stomach 70% of the times these days because of all the uncertainties in my own life. Will I get that full time offer? Will I get it before daddy cut me off on the rent? Can I even deal with that kind of intense work hours? Will I have enough time to study? As I go through these questions that I ask myself on a daily basis, I realize that in the last two months, I have subconsciously replaced all of my old stress factors with new ones. The old problems are still there waiting for a solution, but they no longer seem urgent.

Was anything ever that urgent? Perhaps, some times in life, people get caught up in the self depicted "worst case scenarios", so they create too many unnecessary stress factors that's nothing but counter-productive. I can't predict what will happen in 3 months, I won't even know for sure whether for not I'll be able to wake up on time come Wednesday morning, so why spend time worry about it?

Just like when daddy tell me to believe in what I'm studying, not fight it, maybe we should all spend a little more time living, not fearing it.

Vogue Australia

Gemming Productions!

It's never official until a mail arrives in the mailbox. Still, as of today, I can find information of my own company on the NYS dept of state division of corporation's website. Still waiting for the paperwork to arrive but I'm officially thrilled!!! Now, shall I go ahead and hire myself an assistant? lol

Tonight was fun, a networking event on the rooftop of Empire Hotel, which consisted of shity wine, average turnout, but great company ;) Thanks to my good friends. Now I'm off to making some food. Everyone have a great weekend!

Life Of A Host

She cleaned, she shopped, and she prepared. Now she's sitting in front of the computer blogging while sipping a bordeaux, patiently waiting for the arrival of her guests. For some reasons, she thought of Mrs. Dalloway for a second. Oh, fresh flowers, that's why ;) Only, this will be a good night, good company, good wine, and good conversation.....

Thank God It's weekend

I had multiple "devil wears Prada" moments before I even had breakfast this morning. First stop, about 1 minute after giving me an excel task, my boss gently reminded me that "I don't mean to rush you, but this really shouldn't take more than 5 minutes". Just as I'm scrambling all over the place and thinking that I'm such a idiot for not possessing lightning speed, he demanded an article from wsj in which we do not have a subscription for. Of course, this is my problem, not his....

So, a big thanks to my good friend B, who picked up the phone so early in the morning to save me from having a heart attack. You are too kind.

The rest of the day was not as intense as the morning but busy still. My to-do list for Monday was running long before I finally left work at 6pm. I interviewed two girls in the afternoon, both nervous, unprepared, and spoke broken English. We end up deciding to hire the second girl, for her Columbia MBA status, for her ability to do analysis on excel, and for not giving me a two-page resume. As I write the acceptance email, I secretly wish she'd do better on the job than during the interview. After all, I have a little soft spot for my own people ;)

Off to a quick drink, have a wonderful weekend!

Thanks H!

I saw triple rainbow once over St. Paul's when I was living in London. Sadly, despite my many attemps, I could only capture two inside my camera frame. I dedicate this entry to the friend that I saw the rainbow with, for his words warmed my heart this afternoon. Ps, you are probably the only one who'd check my blog everyday, that's special to me ;)

All Things that Make Me Happy

Lately, the phrase "i feel like i'm barely living" got way too much exposure. Does life really suck that much or do I just need some reminder of all the nice things in my life? So i opened this blog, mostly to remember all the things in life that make me happy, like art, good food and good wine, fashion, pretty photographs, and amazing people who will always be there for me.

H's card to cheer me up :)